disastrophe

periods slept in at school::5,7,8
ill tell you how tomorrow goes with less than 5 hrs of sleep ok? ill shower tonite so i dont have to tomorrow.
ok i really started writing this to clear out the crazy but now im putting stuff up here i wouldnt normally put. like that last rant about me home life. symbolically of course. its weird knowing people, tho few, actually read this. i mean you gotta be a total sucker to think im interesting or retarded or even to think of me.
ok so now what? do we go on? are things gonna get weird? oh no i dont wanna do this same routine again OOOOO NOOOO!

all i hope is that you all know that i am staunchly anti-hippie. forever ill hate em. OHHOHOHOH!!!
i forgot to mention
i am the only person who knows a secret!!!!!
i like makin up alternate worlds in my head and imagine them being true....sometimes they make me realize how i really feel. which, as far as i know is sweet. thats not the secert, but that is what the secret stems from. alternate lives.... so sad but true

god its been forever since i poemed

i still dont know
why i am happy
when many things go so bad.
all i know
is how this makes me
and for that im forever glad.
i havent smiled
for real in ages
today i did, and i was satisfied beyond belief, merely cause it has been 6 months since i smiled for the sole reason that i was having a great day.

well i know what im givin up for Lent. bitin the fingernails. yeah wow thats a nasty habit.so if you see me doin it slap me. then turn the slap into a caress and you know the rest.

i like not eating so much....like 2 meals a day, lowfat at that and im set.....hope i dont..pass out or die or somethin.


im good like waterfalls and happy like a spring daisy...